I don't like it but it is normal for me at this time of the year to feel out of sorts. I am still thinking it is the darkening of the days. This year it is that, AND getting used to 3 kiddos, AND new routines, and being able to only do SO much.
I desire to:
-finish some of my projects
-start new ones
-make Christmas gifties
-blog 3x a week
-live in a tidy home
-be a wonderful mom to my kids
I end up really only having time to mother my children (mostly well). The other things don't fit in right now. Sometimes I get to make a mess in the craft room, sometimes I can do a little yoga with Blondie boy, but really it is baby time around here. Can I feel a little sad that I want to be doing other things sometimes, even though I know that babies are so fleeting?
I made my welcome sign the other day because I had to. I had to make something and I couldn't stop until it was done.
This is where I am these days. Not entirely comfortable, but OK.
You are two months old now. You have been teaching us lots of things about you. You love when your big brothers talk to you, I think that they are getting to close, but you enjoy seeing them right up in your little face. You are such a calm girl. You leave crying for things like a dirty diaper and hunger. Sometimes you cry a little bit when I take too long getting ready for bed. But as soon as you see me you let out a sweet little sigh, as if to say "Mommy, Finally!"
You saved your first smile for your devoted brown-haired brother, even though your Daddy and Grandma thought that they caught it first. You have been working on a giggle this past week and I especially love your lop-sided grin.
You were such a trooper when we all had the swine flu, content to just cuddle while we all waited to get better. You are a wonderful third child. You are a sweet little girl.
November 8, 2009, 9:30 a.m I was reading a blog the other day and the pictures and writing were so very true. It wasn't that it was a post of grand revelations. It was just a post about a family, across the world from me, but so very like my family. It was comforting and funny. I like that. It talked about using your blog to show how you really are, to relate, to share your true self. If you would like to share with all of us you can read more about it here. It is nice to have a pretty blog. To fix your pictures. Crop out the ugly piles of laundry, hide the zits with photoshop, make it look like you want to remember it. Sometimes it is nice to just be, pajamas, holey socks, toys on the floor, all of it.
We all are getting over our flirtation and then straight on romance with H1N1. It wasn't pretty here the last week plus. Our saving grace was little Mango only got a snorkely nose. I was so worried that she would have the fevers along with the rest of us, but she has been saved thus far. I am so thankful. I am also glad that it looks like the rest of us are going to recover with just a cough and runny noses to bring in to this next week. We missed Halloween, my sister came over with treats for the boys but they could only look up from the couch and manage a pitiful "Thhhank you." Big Daddy had his ears all blocked up and I lost my voice, so we were quite the pair. It just makes me thankful for how healthy we are normally.
I made 4 more pumpkins yesterday for my pumpkin quilt. It is nice to have something brainless to make when I have a spare hour. I have 5 more cut out, maybe this will be a finishable project?? We will see. Jacquie is hosting a project finishing party here. I think I might play along, I need to move some stuff out of my sewing room!