Wow, I guess when you really need some kindness you need only to hold out your hand. I really appreciate all of your kind and gentle words. My heart is full.
I finished hand stitching the binding on two quilts today and was able to take a step back from the work, the tired fingers, and the myopic monotony and see their beauty. My chickens are finished and I look at them and think "Did I really make that?" "How far you have come friend...". They will get hung tomorrow at the show and I will be sure to get a picture of them, with them to share with you all.
I, again, can't help but liken my struggles with depression to my struggles with finishing my quilts....the minutiae at the end blurs the picture of the whole. Usually near the end of a project, I am so sick of looking at the it that I just put it in the corner and start on something new. Seeing it to the end is where the glory is. Wow, what a feeling, to put the finished quilt on the couch or the quilt rack instead of back in the craft room out of sight. To take stock of all the things I have learned with the project, things that initially seemed too hard and very daunting, that now seem second nature. It is good to have that chance of reflection and appreciation of a job well done.
Yesterday, my note to myself and to share, was a chance at reflection. I am heartened that it struck a chord. I feel a bit shy about being so open, but now I can go back and read it tomorrow, or next year. I can think about the growth that I have experienced or just feel buoyed by the kind words that I recorded for myself and the cheers of encouragement that you all were so kind to give.