It is dark right now... but I feel I need the catharsis.

I had something beautiful to share today, because there is so much that is beautiful in this world of ours. That will have to wait for another day, I just really have to get something off my chest.

Dear Cancer,

I really hate you. You are a mutant, creepy and disgusting. I am sick and tired of you making people around me sick. My friend Beth is saying good bye to her family because you just couldn't leave her alone. When I think of the hole that is going to be in this world when she dies it just makes me weep. She will be free of this earthly body AND YOU, but we all will miss her so much. Her grandchildren will never feel her hug or get to go to the Country Faire with her in the summer. That is WRONG. I will miss her silly face that she makes when the "B.S." in the conversation gets a little too thick, her style, and her kindness. AND YOU?! Cancer, you are one rotten piece of crap!!

I am so very pissed that you now have chosen to inhabit my mother's breast and lymph nodes... I am very upset about it. I am angry that we can't just cut you out and throw you away, but that she now has to poison her body to try and kill you. I am so very pissed that I am going to have to explain this to my children, answer their questions the best that I can, but also to say that I DON'T KNOW what is going to be, how long you will stay.

Your timing sucks. Sometimes, I think that if I just had to say good bye to Beth right now, I could deal with that. But having to say "hello" to you, right now, and having some idea that, for the very least you are going to be around for a while... well, you are not welcome here, not at all, I hate you. Stay the hell away from my body.

JMB