This past week has been one of great relief. I was SO relieved to finally make it home Monday @ noon. Thursday found my sisters, mother, and I back up in Portland for my mom's pathology reports. We were SO relieved to hear that they got the tumors out WITH negative margins (a nice area around the tumor that is cancer free) and the lymph tumor was a loner, all of the other nodes were cancer-free. EXHALE... To be honest I had no idea what a "good" result from the pathology would even look like. We have had one bad visit with the oncologist after another for the past 5 months, THE PAST 5 MONTHS!!! In my head the fact that my mom was breathing was good news for me. She still has to do 6 weeks of radiation therapy... but for now the cancer is all cut out. She is so happy. My sisters are so happy. I am so happy. The question now is, what is life? What do we do now? When we started this crazy journey down the rabbit hole ... what had I been doing? What had I been planning? I guess I have got to go and figure that out.